We had a SLS seminar on the topic of Ethics yesterday. I was quite excited going into this particular lesson as it kind of addresses the topic I was particularly interested in. However, apart from the first half of the lesson, I felt that the second half of the lesson (mainly about the professional conduct of a lawyer) is a huge snore-fest.
The first half of the lesson addresses the issues of public’s perception of lawyers and pure ethics, I was particularly intrigued by the professor’s never-ending antics and his unparalleled (I don’t know if this is a compliment or not) sense of humour. When he asked about the things people use to describe us, ugly and distasteful phrases like spineless, gutless, “Think we are too smart” came up readily from several students. Many were made without much deliberation or hesitation.
What struck me was not about the repulsive descriptions but rather, how it is all so true. The students were merely reiterating descriptions that I have heard time and time again. After 2 months of legal education and considering the cynicism, I am quite sure that there is some truth that we will one day degenerate into the social failures and outcasts that were so aptly described.
And this is the path I’ve chosen to take. One might say that this is utterly illogical considering the huge sacrifice that one must make. However, I beg to differ. Is there even a sacrifice at all? While not completely disregarding the material sacrifices like time for social interaction, I have confidence to not lose my soul in the process. Considering my conviction in placing such immateriality in money and my recent journey to look for God, I believe that I have done enough affirmative action to not lose myself in the endless and mindless rat-race to spiritual oblivion.
This brings me to my next point on the issue of ethics. Are lawyers all unethical? Is our professional conduct a good measure of ethics? And what then, is ethics? Is there a good indicator of ethics?
I concurred with the girl in my class who said that ethics, being a personal moral standard comes from within yourself. While I think that other sources brought up by various students are in their opinion, good sources of ethics, I find that they were merely paying lip service. While we do know the reasonable and some may argue, the universal minimal threshold of ethics, everything else above that becomes grey. These grey areas are precisely what we have to consider in our everyday lives.
A particular source caught my attention. Religion. It seems such a long time ago when I was the confident high school student, ever believing and having faith in myself. Alas, even I, the ultimate self-believer have fallen down the path and misunderstood my personal morals. Can you then blame me for searching for a religion that may undoubtedly gives me a moral compass in which I can conduct my life without feeling the sense of guilt I feel every time I committed a wrong? Although that is not the only reason why I am looking for a religion, it is surely the main reason why i now go to church every Sunday.
The second half of the lesson devolved into a lesson on a lawyer’s professional conduct. While I shall not dwell on the rhetoric and even the paradox of it all, I shall conclude that moral standards should come within yourself and that there should always be someone or something to look to for guidance and direction. In my case, it shall hopefully be guided by religion.
May God save me from losing my soul in the senselessness of it all.